I squeezed my brain a lot today. Even the juices would be better down the drain. For every spare minute I had. My mind will wander around freely, cajoling each and every emotion. Somehow, there are too much of the thoughts too occupy once vacant mind.
I hate living in denial as much as I hate equivocations. I'm only eighteen, I'm not wise. I make plenty of mistakes, wrong choices. I turn right instead of left. I play with my food instead of eating it. You get what I mean right? I still have loads to learn and gain, many other things I have yet to experience and such.
Have you ever wondered how it feels like wanting to get the things you ever wanted but it’s to no avail? For such, freedom. You ever wish you could get all the freedom you wanted at a certain age but it completely knocks you down once you reach the point. Cause everywhere you go and no matter what you do, something is stopping you. A force or something. Gosh.
And it's pouring outside, I can hear the crystal mystique sound of the heavy raindrops against the windowpanes. Cold and sick, alone with just the four walls.
Well I guess I just have to wait. Sadness flies away on the wings of time.
p/s: Changes around us.
I'm still holding on.
:)
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